What’s happeningΒ 

Laying in my bed back in the big room, monkeys been gone five weeks now. In that time I’ve fallen in love, took Bubba to a bad yogi. I’m so so sore, my bones are throbbing, heat radiating from my muscles. 

What am I doing!!! I shouldn’t be getting involved with a beautiful human it’s just not fair. When this disability is getting more and more painful every year. Even the pain clinic has written me off. But other than giving in and becoming a bed hermit, I have no choice as it wouldn’t be fair on my babies! 

This might sound crap but jeez I love my girls, four holidays down. Cheeky monkey loves the finer things in life, first born loves Both, but I feel more grounded in earth. Bubba not quite sure yet but all three have the old Hippy in them. Although cheeky monkey “I thought loved the finer things in life” is living in a camper now on #Australia  and my first born had been, (As is her baby now a Hippy chic” and Bubba now too. Maybe just maybe be my way of keeping them grounded in life. But shoot do I feel proud of everyone of them. But now Conkie (how) I think of my sister bless her soul. I know how to behave around daughters but now I feel I need to do something for him. Special time!!but what and whale?hez now a man and a father. 

I almost feel complete, and to think I thought I needed a man to feel this feeling I’m feeling nearly in my heart. When all I really needed was a hug or pat to say!! Mmm I don’t even need that cos I know I have a special place somewhere one day.

God I love these guys so so much, end of!!