Well that’s what I had today. I’ve been working on myself since returning from my yoga and sisterhood shaman retreat. Cutting cords from my past working on my chakras especially the throat chakra, as I was told by my shaman teacher all my emotions are stuck in my throat. Strangle enough where my disability has stemmed from.
So after a quick talk, my healer suggested I went to the future as I’m four weeks away from moving from my home with no set plans in place. Due to trusting T and faults promises. So I agreed but only five years.
I lay down on the bench become comfortable, and into relaxation I went totally protected by golden light. To my safe place I went staring up at the stars one particular star which came closer and close until it landed beside me a door opened, I looked inside to see loads of comfy cushions. I went in and made myself comfortable. Then off it flue.
On landing I got out, asked what I could see. A cottage with blue shutters on the outside, a open fire and a vegetable patch. What else? A mans coat and cap. Then I saw a dog lying in front of the fire and a walking stick, there where lots of trees around and a pub called the fox. Where is this cottage, I’m not sure but the sea is close.
How did you get to this cottage? We bought it me and T. Is he someone you already know? Yes he’s my ex. Can you see anything else? Yes I have money coming and it’s not from the sale of my house. How’s T going to make this better? He’s going to have a shock a health shock a wake up call. We’re going to have a apartment in spain to so the children can use it and us in the winter. My bones hurt I said, there’s the walking stick again. Who is it? Mine I replied. Then I saw T bought the cottage.
I saw my eldest will be getting married in three years. I checked on the others all doing good. Then I saw my Mum has liver disease. Strangle enough she’s been house ridden for the last months, I saw her passing very soon. Oh that where I get money from, strange as I’ve been told enough times in my fifties three years that I’m not in her will. Not something I wanted to see obviously.
Where do you see your self when you move from your home? At Pats I said first then renting in Albert street I saw something pointed. T going to ask me to move in but I’m going to say no. Then I saw a wedding it was mine on the beach in spain all our children where there, we where staying in a villa which we had hired. I then saw a turkey, Christmas time next year.
What do you do with your time? I meditate, yoga and healing. I saw another operation I think next year. I must put my health at the top of every disishion I make, I said. I then notice I buy a ground floor flat in Fleet but don’t move in until next April time.
What will make this journey easier for you? To relax, don’t worry and go with it.
We then cut cords, first from my Mother the cord was attached to my throat (we use to communicate through notes when I Was a child, I wasn’t aloud a voice as a child) the second from my father which was attached to my solo plexus which took longer and made me feel sick (Sexually abuse).
After coming around I felt lighter.