So once again all ready for another operation number five in five years. Normally the operations are in my spine and bone spurs damage but this time it a blockage in my right kidney which has caused it to be very enlarged.
Having the blockage cut out and a stent placed in for six weeks, six weeks later it will be removed.
I won’t lie it’s exhausting, as with every operation my chronic pain increases, normally very positive I feel too tired to care right now. Which is truly not like me. But I thank the universe for our NHS.
I have beautiful children with big sparks in their bellies and hearts. This alone should keep me positive. But I also have the big decision of where and how I’m going to live once I sell my home. Due to benefits and my health it’s all to much.
Had I had a partner I’d love to buy in Bulgaria or buy a camper van and just hit the road. Not having enough equity to buy another property in the U.K. So all having to go on dead rent until I don’t have a penny left.
I ask the universe for a sign in making the right decision, I am ready, or I will be… I am ready