Equal our are our souls. Now & forever


No matter, were you go in life. It’s your journey. Weather it may be love, money or contentment. If you have too Fight never give up nor give in, till only you’re heart knows. You’re still & always will be equal. End off!

Namaste ❀️

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Nature keeps me sane, life and obstacles


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Wow what a week this is turning out to be. Went to Camhs yesterday emergency appointment for my fifteen year old. Not aloud to school, just rest and monitored eating. Eating Disorder, she shared with me the Instagram accounts supporting eating disorders, all the information you need when your a vulnerable teenager with the NORMAL complexes of your body. In my eyes it’s control grooming. Once my baby girls back on the right road “which she will be, if I have anything to do with it” another mission to get my teeth into. Another negative of the internet.

Moving back into my home from my partners. As you get older it gets harder to merge two homes into one, especially with no commitment. Sometimes loves just not enough!

Insomnia or pain awaking, maybe a bit if both.

First borns 27th Birthday with little Boo having a sleep over with Nana.

Pain management for two hours today for my arthritis of neck, spine and shoulders. Let me tell you massive flare up due to freezing weather and moving.

But hay, I’m still so luckily blessed, my poor school Friend is on her second week if being in an induced coma due to organ failure, with no improvement but stable.

Our life journeys lead us to where we are meant to be. I shall not roll over πŸ’› for nature keeps me sane. X

God I love being a Muma πŸ’›


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Nearly twenty seven years of being a Muma and not a day go’s pass when I don’t feel proud. Three beautiful Daughters one beautiful Granddaughter, it’s not been easy. We’ve all had our fair share of Obstercals thrown at us but when the crunch comes “bring it on” we’ve had lots of death, bad boys, eating disorders, alcohol, spitefulness from other family members, health issues but no one and I mean no one will brake us. We are so solid. They really are my life and what I was put on this earth to do, to be the Muma of these beautiful caring human beings πŸ’›

Another 2am awakening


Twice since Saturday not bad ha!!! The pain of my spine & shoulder wake me once again. Mind you doesn’t take a lot, all I need do is turn. But no chance of returning to sleep again, anytime soon “Brain kicks in”

What do I have to worry about? Two Daughters having health & personal problems 27 & 15 year olds another 22 year old “Thank god” is okay, then there’s the added worry of Being made redundant, income, rent, mortgage, frustration of not being able to do things I’ve been doing all my life without paying for it or paying someone. An unhealthy relationship. My beautiful deaf Staffordshire bull cancer tumour growing way too quick.

Plus the added pressure of my studies I’ve taken on to try to bring in some sort of income, on a positive note of Holistic Pain Management. Which will also benefit myself. Oh and I forgot the cold weather has kicked in & kicked these old bones.

My friend said today you must of been a “right cow in my past life” but I believe what doesn’t brake you yep makes you!!

Do you know what keeps me going? My best Friend Lisa, Mediation, Reiki and after my meltdown, I pick myself up and firmly believe as usual my last chapter will be my BEST. Thank you all for listening. Feel better already. Love and Light Namaste πŸ’›